strength and returns.

So – I told *him* that I was not going to call him. I told him that I am looking for someone who wants to invest emotionally in me, and that I am not into friends with benefits. I told him lots of things… He ended up calling… less than 24 hours after the last time we talked. Go FIGURE! What is up with these men, huh? I think I always get involved with emotionally unavailable men… Maybe I am afraid of commitment too? Well, Let me say this. I am done with that bull sh*t! I was really excited about all of our potential adventures – about swingers clubs, and threesomes, and, us both having the freedom to do whatever we wanted with the hope that a relationship could be sustained that did not involve ownership, or possession. This was going to be my little experiment. I am a female, and I LOVE sex. In fact, I mourned the loss of it for a day or so… Not that I cannot get it from somewhere else, because believe me I can. But I definitely have standards and am not sleazy. I don’t go out looking for sex when I go out with friends. When I decided the relationship was over, I felt relieved. I stood up for myself and realized that I was not sad for very long. I feel so much self worth and self respect for myself, and by not lowering my standards, he called back!!!! Wow. Lets see what happens next. I think at the very least the next two days will involve a poly meeting, reading book six of Harry Potter in preparation for the next movie, and a new sci-fi story involving aliens  Hasta logo.