Other “whys”

I decided to start this blog out of 2 reasons.
1) I needed a better outlet to write in. I spend a lot of time in my journals, but for some reason find it dissatisfying. This could be because I want for someone out there to hear me… even if they don’t know who I am, and I never know that they read it. Maybe this blog will be some help some people to think through their own issues. Ideally the suffering I go through and have gone through will help to end another’s pain or prevent it altogether.
2) I need to write in order to order my thoughts and remember epiphanies I have and moments that I need to embrace. I have lost the ability to listen to my intuition and constantly doubt myself. Thus, if I write them down, I can look back and remember decisions I have made and moments of clarity.
Also, I would like to add that this blog needs to be anonymous because no-one can know these dark secrets of mine. If they did, then I could not be as honest as I am. I fear judgment by my friends and family regardless of if I “should” or not. And then there are those potential dates and friends that because they do not know me yet may not want to get to know me because of what I say in this blog.